Monday, June 11, 2007

"POWERLESS"

This word is defined as "helpless, uable to act". That is a horrible feeling, especially for someone that trys to keep going & going. And there are 2 little reasons that slow you down, they are 3yrs old & 5 1/2mos old. Welcome to motherhood huh?!
I'm in search of a healthy balance for all of us & as you all know children do their own thing, they dont worry about such things as balance. They want to know things like can I eat something, can I go outside, can I can I can I... They have no sense of time, so it does not bother them that there is not enough time in the day to get something done. That would be the "unable to act" part for me. Not being able to take away their little aches & pains when they have them, that is powerless.
Another form of powerless, is when you see someone you love & care about doing things that are harmful to their life and/or lives around them. Powerless is when someone has access to things that will improve their health & they dont take advantage of it. Powerless is when you yourself reaches out through friends & family for help whether it be physical or emotional and you get no response.
It is then that we must rely on our healthy freedoms to either seek out a resolve for the matter at hand or the ability to let it go. Let's face it we are not God nor should we try to be. I view myself as one of God's little helpers just trying to make a differance while I'm on this earth.
As always please keep our men & woman of the military & their families in your prayers to keep them safe as they defend our healthy freedoms.
God night & God bless !!!

Friday, June 1, 2007

"Value yourself"

I know it's been a while since the last blog, time tends to get away from you when raising kids. But it recently caught up with me, the lack of time that is! See I'm like the energizer bunny I keep going & going & going until I cant go no more. I try to put everyone around me 1st & justify it well. The truth of the matter is that all it did was make me sick/depressed.
We have to learn how to value ourselves as much as we do our loved ones or no one involved is happy. Our partner wants to scream, our children dont understand whats going on & we just want to cry because everything around us is falling apart or so we think. See I'm new at this mommy thing, I've been a step mommy at various times but this time it's my family & thank God they are not giving up on me. Thank God they love me & want to help me anyway they can. For that I'm blessed & very grateful!!
My stepson came up to me today & stopped his little bike in front of me to give the biggest hug I've had in a long time & told me he loved me. Now see him & I have been tangling these past few days because he's 3 & I'm stressed. So this meant a lot to me for him to do this. I've been told that kids still love you at the end of the day & dont really know how much it hurt you to discipline them, and I have to tell you there are days that I feel thats all I do.
It never ceases to amaze me how God sends us messages in all size packages. And as I know but lost sight of, if we dont take care of ourselves & enjoy the healthy freedoms that God gives us then we cant help make anyone else happy. And I tell people all the time that I'm just one of Gods little helpers trying to make a differance in the world and I cant do that if I'm sick & stressed.
As always please keep all the men & woman fighting the war in your prayers for safe returns to their family someday soon.
Good night & God bless !!